hmm.. so.. yesterday (05/11/2007) ... morning... a chilly morning.. went for a bath.. and straight into a relaxing hot shower... it was an amazing feeling... so... just sat.. and went for a swim into a waves of thoughts...
for past fortnight or so.. i hav been goin through huge mood swings... bcoz of placement debacles... and.. was really getting to me.. loads of frnds tired to make me feel good.. but.. swings continued..
so.. cuming back to the hot shower.... strted into a flashback mode... wot in my life have i not accomplished till now.. going back to the most crutial point of any1's carrer.. very early stages where careers r set... SSC... i aimed at abt 75%.. not more.. i cud hav easily got it.. but.. lazy me.. thought.. 75% wud b enuff to get where i wanted to go... go got 74.40.. so i got wot i amined...
goin further.. wot next after ssc... diploma wot i narrowed down to... and the course.. MEch ( still cant understnd .. y ppl.. do IT engg) ... so the best course in mech diploma was in Fr. Agnel... aimed for it.. got it.. last seat in mech engg of tht year... again.. got wot i targeted...
again.. in next 4 yrs.. figured out.. there is no pt in studying much.. as even toppers too dont get addmission in bby.. hav to take a back door entry... but.. i had amined to top in 5th sem of diploma... i did tht.. vth 80% ... again got it.. goin futher.. got the admision thro backdoor entry.. for degree... most sensible decision i hav taken in my life.. by selectin.. PIIT as my college... a relaxing 3 yrs passed..
last yr... aimed.. to get a distinction... got it.. easily.. not much of a struggle... same old formula.. read a week b4 exams.. and the calculas in subjs wil get me to distinction...
in last yr.. wanted to do MBA.. gave CAT, NMAT, CET .... but.. alwayz aimed at gettin in SIMSR .. tht too via guju quota... even thought got good %tile in other exams.. but got wot i wanted.. but.. after a struggle... yeh.. also.. abt CAT... had a huge verbal fight vth a close relative.. whose son was also giving CAT vth me.. and.. he strted.. very bad tasted attack on me.. tht.. how unprepared i was... this was a night b4 CAT... i couldnt take it.. i thought.. i hav to crack CAT... didnt think.. of gettin into IIM's... got wot i aimed.. cracked CAT.(ofcourse surpassing his son by a huge margin) ....
so... uptill know.. i hav really got wot i hav aimed at.. easily.. or after a lot of struggle... so this placement thingz is just 1 such thingz... i fact after just getting into SIMSR... i hav realized tht its better u get it after a thoda struggle.. u tend to value thingz more...
SO.. finally.. block is cleared... dont need to fear abt anything, any1, any kinda competition...
only thing i need to overcome my fears....
again.. my favourite line...
IF IT IS TO BE, IT IS UP TO ME
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hmmm.... someone has said:
ReplyDeleteThe wait was worth it!
All cylinders will fire soon.
ReplyDeleteThe trigger is a moment away.
i have perfect two lines describing your situation " WAQT SE PEHLE AUR NASEEB SE JYADA NA KISI KO MILA HAI AUR NA KISI KO MILEGA" , so just wait for ur turn, and do what u can do ur best when oppurtunity comes ur way.
ReplyDelete:O) thoughts have a lot of power dont they? u can be in a scorching desert at one moment and in a relaxing oasis at another...all thanks to positive and negative thinking...but stalwarts say theat positive thoughts trigger positive vibes...and in turn positive results...so on that 'positive' note;o) let the oasis be yours soon!
ReplyDelete"..when often on my couch I lie,
ReplyDeletein vacant or in pensive mood,
they shine upon the inward sky..
that is the bliss of solitude.."
-- Daffodils
(W. Wordsworth)
the best time to bounce back is
ReplyDeletewen u feel u r totally down and out, but in reality it is not that way actually...
our own DADA has proved that point time and again.....
ur time will come,
tha wait will end,,,
n that time is now, right now!!!